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I want my baby!!!! Why does he have to be on restrictions!?!?! Damn his mother -jk jk-

I ♥ Kyle!!!!

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Wow everyones life seems to suck. I hate that. I hate when any of my friends are sad/mad/confused etc... Anyways yeah my life is pretty good right now but I'm depressed-don't know why- but yeah. I keep hearing about people breaking up and my friends keep talking about how they thought that they loved someone but they guess they didn't or the other person didn't, and I'm like I hope that that doesn't happen with me and Kyle. Even if we don't last a long time- I don't want to regret going out with him and I don't want to find out that he never really loved me... gah this is why I don't fall in love with people...
Current Location:
house
Current Mood:
I miss my Kyle!!! I miss my Kyle!!!
Current Music:
Senses Fail
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Blah its the middle of the night and I just got finished putting more crappy pictures of me on myspace-- I know I won't get many comments- I never do I'm not like Thomas who gets like 10 comments every 5 mins cause he's so "hott and popular" blah---anyways... I'm missing Kyle so much its not even funny and I still have to wait like almost 3 more days till I can see him again... *kills over* oh well I guess I'll live. So I spent all of today online and on myspace and stuff and now I'm spending all night on here... But hey it was a nice day outside and aside from getting attacked by a random psychotic cat- It was nice to go outside for once... well I think I'm gonna go play video games- catch ya'll later.
Current Mood:
depressed depressed
Current Music:
I hope you Dance_Leanne Womack
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Social Groups:
Bold all that apply. ---I can't bold so I'll put an X beside the ones that apply

PREPPY/DESIGNER-
i shop at abercrombie
X i have more then 2 collared shirts
X shopping is my favorite pasttime
i own an expensive cell phone
i wear designer perfume
i have a designer handbag
i own an iPod
i cheerlead/dance

GOTH-
my favorite color is black
X i shop at hot topic Only occasionally though
ozzy osbourne is amazing
X some of my clothes have chains
X black looks good when paired with red
X i like dark music
X i write and sulk in my free time
X i own a lot of red makeup

GEEK-
X i go on my computer all of the time
X i wear thick framed glasses
i own a pair of overalls
i like checked shirts
i know how to play chess
i don't know much about sports
X i do really well in school for the most part anyway.
i always raise my hand in class

STONER-
i have tried drugs before
X i sometimes cut class
i hate school
my report card and test grades are terrible
i'm high 24/7
my friends give me drugs
i plan on becoming a drug dealer some day
i have tried alcohol as well as drugs

HIP HOPPER-
X i love rap
50 cent is like, god --HELL NO
i know how to breakdance, and im pretty good at it
"yo", "da", and "homie" are used in my vocabulary a lot
i wear journeys, bandanas, and white shirts practically all the time
rap and hip hop is all i listen to
X i'm a 'gangsta'
brown, beige, and sometimes gray are used a lot in my wardrobe

EMO/PUNK-
X band tee shirts are all i wear
X i play guitar
X i'm in a band
X i listen to NOFX, rancid, and the ramones
X i want to be a member of a famous band some day
X i wear dark mascara
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX i like Fall Out Boy
i skateboard a lot

Boyfriend thing...

Favorite thing about your boyfriend? That he's a dork, and adorable- most of the time -lol-

What color are his eyes? Brown

What color is his hair? blonde

Whats his favorite color? red and blue

Whats his favorite movie? hmm... I dunno

When your alone what do you do? haven't really been alone, only been going out 5 days

Whens his birthday? April 21

Whats his nationality? Irish English and w/e else lol- I had to cheat and look on his myspace for this one

Does he play any sports? he used to wrestle

Whats his favorite number? dunno

Does he like candles? I dunno

Ever done anything kinky? uh no

Taken a shower together? uh no

Are you in love? no

Current Mood:
content content
Current Music:
Sisterhood Of The Traveling Pants
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Bold All That Apply
(dont know how to bold cause I'm lazy so I'll just put an x by them)

Appearance
I am shorter than 5'4"
xI think I am ugly sometimes
xI have many scars.
I tan easily.
xI wish my hair was a different color.
xI have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo. (Well I will this summer)
xI am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/I've had braces.
xI wear glasses.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
xI've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
xI have more than 2 piercings
I have piercings in places besides my ears
xI have freckles.

Family/Home Life
xI've sworn at my parents.
I've run away from home.
I've been kicked out of the house.
xMy biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
xI want to have kids someday.
I've had children.
I've lost a child.

School/Work
I have a job.
I've fallen asleep at work/school.
xI almost always do my homework.
xI've missed a week or more of school.
I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
I failed more than 1 class last year.
I've stolen something from my job.
I've been fired.
xI've skipped school.

Embarrassment
xI've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've peed from laughing.
xI've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard I've cried.
I've glued my hand to something.
xI've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've had my trousers rip in public

Health
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've gotten stitches.
I've broken a bone. a finger
I've had my tonsils removed.
I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I had a serious surgery.
xI've had chicken pox.

Traveling
xI've driven over 200 miles in one day.
I've been on a plane. (I will this summer)
I've been to Canada.
I've been to Mexico.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan.
I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to Africa.
xI've been to America.

Experiences
I've gotten lost in my city.
xI've seen a shooting star.
xI've wished on a shooting star.
xI've seen a meteor shower.
xI've gone out in public in my pajamas.
xI've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
xI've kicked a guy where it hurts.
i've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving.
I've gone skinny dipping.
I've played spin the bottle.
I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing
xI've been in a play.
xI've met someone in person from the Internet.
xI've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I've seen the Northern Lights.
I've sat on a roof top at night.
I've played chicken.
xI've played a prank on someone.
I've ridden in a taxi.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. (grr not yet)
xI've eaten Sushi.
I've been snowboarding.(not yet)

Relationships
I've gone on a blind date.
xI've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
xI miss someone right now.
xI have a fear of abandonment.
I've gotten divorced.
xI've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. (yeah right now)
I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
xI've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
xI've had a crush on someone of the same sex
I've had a crush on a teacher.
I've been kissed in the rain.
xI am a cuddler.
xI've hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
xI've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
xI've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I've snuck out of my house.
xI have lied to my parents about where I am.
xI am keeping a secret from the world.
xI've cheated while playing a game.
xI've cheated on a test. (actually it was just a quiz)
I've run a red light
xxI've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
xI've been in a fist fight.
I've been arrested.
xI've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol
xxxI've consumed alcohol.
I regularly drink.
I've passed out from drinking.
I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
I've smoked weed.
xI've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
I've eaten shrooms.
I've popped E.
I've inhaled Nitrous.
I've done hard drugs.
xI have cough drops when I'm not sick
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. (should have been)
xI shut others out when I'm depressed.
I take anti-depressants.
I'm anorexic or bulimic. (I was almost anorexic once)
I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
xI've hurt myself on purpose.
xI'm addicted to self harm. (not recently- cept for tonight I just had to)
xI've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
I'm afraid of dying.
xI hate funerals.
xI've seen someone dying.
xSomeone close to me has attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has committed suicide.
xI've planned my own suicide.
xI've attempted suicide.
I've written a eulogy for myself

Materialism
xI own over 5 rap CDs.
xI have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
xI own something from Hot Topic.
I own something from Pac Sun.
I collect comic books.
I own something I got on e-bay.
I own something from Abercrombie.

Political/Social Attitudes
xIn general, I don't like people.
I'm a feminist.
xI'm outgoing.
I listen to political music.
I'm Democratic.
xI'm Republican.
I'm liberal.

Random
xI can sing well.
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others easily.
xI watch the news.
I don't kill bugs.
xI hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
xI curse regularly.
xI sing in the shower.
I am a morning person. (hell no)
I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
I'm a snob about grammar.
xI am a sports fanatic.
xI twirl my hair
xI have "x"s in my screen name.
I love being neat
I love Spam
I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
I bake well.
xMy favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
xI would wear pajamas to school.
I like Martha Stewart
I know how to shoot a gun
xI am in love with love...
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
xI laugh at my own jokes.
I believe in ghosts.
I am online 24/7, with an online message
xI can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
xI am really ticklish.
xI love white chocolate
xI bite my nails.
xI play video games.
xI'm good at remembering faces.
I'm good at remembering names.
I'm good at remembering dates.
xI have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

Current Mood:
depressed depressed
Current Music:
I write Sins not Tragedies_Panic at the Disco
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Woo so there was a show at my church last night. It was awesome aside from the fact I had a headache most of the time cause I gave blood yesterday afternoon and got really lightheaded and pale. But yeah I got 3 free T-shirts yesterday, one from the Blood Connection, a Trust The Unseen ghetto T-shirt-lol-, and A Beautiful Tragedy T-shirt. It was really cool cause I had no money and I was going around asking people for a dollar, and the band ended up paying for half of it- I was like heck yes I love ABT even more than I did before. But yeah ABT was awesome last night- as always. Trust The Unseen did really good for their first show, I think they are going to be really good. And 6ft From Failure was pretty good too, ha I got Tyler-the lead singer to say poptart- yeah inside joke btwn me, Summer, Ben and Thomas
Current Mood:
content content
Current Music:
Slick Shoes
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Your Five Variable Love Profile



Propensity for Monogamy:



Your propensity for monogamy is medium.

In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.

But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!

There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.



Experience Level:



Your experience level is medium.

You probably have had a couple significant loves.

And you may have even had your heart broken.

But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people.



Dominance:



Your dominance is low.

This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.

You know a relationship is not about getting your way.

And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.



Cynicism:



Your cynicism is low.

You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.

No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.

You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.

And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.



Independence:



Your independence is medium.

In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."

You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.

But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.


Current Mood:
content content
Current Music:
DDR
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d*** myspace blah blah server is too busy blah blah s***. errr anyways everyone should go to Scuffletown tomorrow cause I'm gonna be there- so yeah dooooo it!!! lol
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So and So
You scored 14 Snobiness, 71 Nerdiness, 7 Loserishness, and 21 Weirdness!
You are So and So! You're a bit of a nerd, but you like it that way. You made up an imaginary boyfriend to make you feel more popular. You wish you were cooler, so you hang out with Cheerleader. If you ditch your loser friends, you might actually go somewhere in life.




My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:


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You scored higher than 30% on Snobiness

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You scored higher than 99% on Nerdiness

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You scored higher than 7% on Loserishness

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You scored higher than 34% on Weirdness
Link: The Teen Girl Squad Personality Test written by newbluechampion on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test


Whats sad it that I was think of what was happening and knew exactly how to say each of the quotes in this quiz. tee hee Soo Good!!! Ugly One you are looking so maky-outy... This side has birds on it. Chomp!!! I think my friend and some presidents just flew by...Yeah I'm a dork.
Current Mood:
lonely lonely
Current Music:
Pop Princess_The Click Five
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Type in the following 5 phrases with your name into Google search, and post 5-7 results for each.

Whitney wants---
-emotional passion in a relationship and who can blame her?
-to know how he knows about it then. He explains that many girls
have told him about it.
-to know what is so funny.
-all the clothes to come off. (lmao)
-wants you to come at her. In fact, she insists.Whitney, who weighs in at 205 pounds, takes up a solid five feet, eight inches of vertical space... (I'm fat man-lmao)
-to eat in their room, to go to private beaches or closed off pools. (yeah I do lol)

Whitney needs---
-assistance to help her stay on task, focus on her work, and eliminating distractions.
-to be with Lana, but for cryin' out loud!!
-speed control
-some help -- and a new wigmaker. (yeah my wigs suck man-lmao)
-TO DUMP HIM IN ORDER TO STAY OFF OF DRUGS.

Whitney was killed---
-outright, pinned against the car while the moving vehicle
continued to strike (ahhh attack of the cars)
- in a tragic horse and buggy accident (it would have been better if it had been a tragic buffer accident :p)
-when hit by a car
-during a choking attack on a bong (god I'm such a stoner)
-as a result of an unsafe bunk bed.
-in a card game by a group of carousing Texans.

Whitney feels---
Overall, here is how Whitney feels today about this coming-out experience--lol-
-an instant attraction to him.
-like her world is falling apart.
-guilty after making love to Chad.(don't I always-jk)
-that princesses are brats and would rather be referred to as Queen Whitney
-SHE, HERSELF, is disgusting. The only intimate experience she has, is WITH HER OWN BROTHER. That's got to whack you out. (I know it whacks me out.)

Whitney should---
-be added to the dead pool right about now.......her expiration date MUST be coming shortly. (well thats a nice thing to know)
-give a linear equation for x.
-not be in Orville’s room.
- be medicated.

Whitney can---
-sing as she has nothing else going for her.
-help you to do that! (do what?)
-use a better sense of time and place.
-drag out the dirt and dismiss it as jealous sniping.

Whitney can't---
-resist twisting
-help longing for him…
-stay off of the crack, oh wait, according to Whitney that is the stuff that only poor people use (lol which is why I'm poor)
-help herself sometimes.
-even be ghetto fabulous anymore. (aww darn)

Whitney hates---
-her bedroom and won't sleep there.
-Clayton from The first moment He comes upon her at The stream, and
is against his amorous attentions. but she is drawn to his easy charm
-you, so she's not going to Listen to your "do as I say, But not as I do" advice anymore.(nope not gonna do it)
-the word...
-the public and hates Being bothered, (yeah I do)

Whitney loves---
-to take a bath.(lol)
-her crack pipe (oh yeah)
-every person she meets. Her tail wags, her eyes sparkle, she so very glad to meet everyone! Playful, she loves toys, but is always polite. (lmao)
- your comments!(on myspace *wink wink*)
-to lie on the couch with you (aw right giggidy giggidy)
-to sing.(its true)

Current Mood:
lonely lonely
Current Music:
Who I am Hates Who I've Been_Relient K
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Dude I have black hair cause yeah I had to cover up my pink hair and now I feel so emo- gah I gotta go cry over it now *sniff sniff* lmao here is the crazy-ness:

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wow that picture sucks---D*mn you, you emoness

Current Mood:
emo emo
Current Music:
The Suffering_Coheed and Cambria
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Your Life: The Movie
by mintyduck
Who will play you:Demi Moore
Who will play your love interest:Tara Reid
Weeks you will stay in the box office:7
Song that will play during your love scene:Chris Isaak - Wicked Game
Song that will play during your death:Simon and Garfunkel - Sound of Silence
Your name:
Quiz created with MemeGen!


ok I guess this answers it---
Gay or Not Gay?
by tashay17
LJ Name
Favorite Color
Gay or Not Gay?Bi-sexual
Quiz created with MemeGen!


And here is what I look like lol--
Generate your Anime Style by Jena-su
Name:
Hair:Short and brightly coloured.
Clothes:School boy/girl uniform.
Powers:Fire magic
Special Features:None
Sidekick:A wise-ass little demon.
Attitude:Psychotic and damn proud.
Weapon:Slingshot
Quiz created with MemeGen!
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The super villain in you! by mrshouty
Username
Your zodiac sign is
Your villain alias isNinja
Your partner in crime isbrad5150
Your catchphrase isRawr!
Your weapon of choice isA Flashlight
Your costume will look like
Your crimes will fail: 21%
You will get caughtSeptember 5, 2040
Quiz created with MemeGen!
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Please leave a one-word comment that you think best describes me.

It can only be one word.

No more.

Then copy & paste this in your journal so that I may leave a word about you.

Current Mood:
content content
Current Music:
Relient K
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Duuude I went to Tyler's house tonight and he had 2 other friends over there-One guy was 25 and kinda hott. lol but anyways we got ALOT of fireworks and even took the gunpowder out of them and made firework bombs---It was freaking awesome--here is a pic from my friend's phone---
Yeah we have a video tape of it too which Tyler's dad is supposed to give me a copy of sometime. Anyways Happy New Year everybody- hope u have an Awesome year!!!
Current Mood:
pyro pyro
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So yeah its 5 am almost and yeah I am beyond exhaustion. so I guess since this is the latest I have stayed up in forever I should go to bed now- If I can. I just had the craziest aim conversations with Thomas as always, but yeah I guess I should go try to sleep now so good morning all and goodnight to myself.Zzz..
Current Mood:
happy but tired happy but tired
Current Music:
Coheed and Cambria_the Suffering
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Guys Like That You're Fun

You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing
That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back
You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys
But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you


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Current Mood:
bored bored
Current Music:
Rum is for drinking not for burning
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yay for gay best friends---Justin, Summer, Zach, and I went and Saw Chronicles of Narnia again today!!! yay Then we went to the mall cause I wanted to check the prices on the prom dresses I want but my fav one was gone *tear* that sucks everyone liked that dress too, but the other one is there so i guess thats good.

fox girl
the fox is your true demon form.you are smart and
sexy,you do grab a lot of attentions!you are
generous and people likes you.you know well how
to deal with different situations too.^^


What is your true demon form?girls only(with anime pics)
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Current Mood:
content content
Current Music:
Coheed and Cambria
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Woohoo C-mas was yesterday I gots my guitar Eee I love it *hugs it tightly* I also got a b-ball goal so I can finally practice my shots cause I'm horrible. lol I gots a cell phone yay but its prepaid boo. lol Yeah me and Summer tried on prom dresses today and decided that we want to be punk this year and next year look all glamorous lol I also got some cool stuff from Hot Topic today. w00t I went and saw Fun w/Dick and Jane yesterday with Summer, Fluffy, and Tyler then Tyler came over and watched Ice Age at my house- He didn't leave till like 12 lol, but yeah.
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